I can't

handle it

sth is anoyying me
but i can't control this thing stronger
lead to i want to be a crower
i don't how the things happen until now
maybe i should finish the thing now
if i make the decision

i hope
it can begin again the situasion won't happen
to sum up
i don't know what can i do
and i don't know how it would go on

my grammer is the worse
DO NOT TELL ME ANY MISTAKE! INCLUDE SPELLING!